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LISA GREENSTEIN
Writer of mathematics textbooks and
other things, builder of clay things, long-distance swimmer and occasional
performer, Cape Town, South Africa
So February swung round this year with a bit of a seedy thing going. I'd
reached the end of my Year of Internet Dating, which had yielded more stories
that can be related here, but then found myself reading Angelica's Grotto
and felt like I'd been thrown in the deep end. So to speak. And in the
background, for the past few months, Lara [Hoffenberg] and I have become
regular gym-goers, and keep finding ourselves getting all sweaty on these
squeaky machines while discussing not-so-squeaky things. So getting some
yellow-paper action in among the locker rooms and weight machines seemed
somehow.... inevitable really.
So first I hunted for some lockers that were, er, locked - it being late at
night, there weren't that many. But #69 was forthcoming, along with #130 and a
few others. Not #14, but you can't always get what you want, apparently. Then
slipped some in between the 10 and 15kg weights on the thigh abductor
machines. And that other machine where you open and close your arms like a
book and it does amazing cleavage things.
Unfortunately we forgot the camera, so I don't have actual on-site visual
evidence this time round, but perhaps that's in keeping with the
subterraneanness of it all too.
The quotations follow below...
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"Do you think men will ever
feel equal to women?"
"Obviously they can't feel equal until they are equal, and whether or not
that'll ever happen I can't say. But before any change can happen there
has to be recognition of the present situation, and that's the object of
this study."
"I'm afraid I'm too old to change, Melissa."
"Nobody's asking you to. I'm not exactly a role model either and I'm too
perverse to change, so I guess the two of us will have to carry on being
less than perfect."
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Angelica's Grotto |
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The sky grew dark as they
went down Piccadilly towards Green Park Station, Klein whispering, "A
winged horse can't do my flying for me, I have to do it on my own. We are
something to each other. You don't always know what's happening when it's
happening. `This can't be love because I feel so well…' " Suddenly there
was rain beating down, urgent and shining and steaming on street and
pavement. "You go on
ahead, he said, "I can't run."
"A little rain won't hurt me," she said, and pressed his arm closer to
her. Drenched and smiling, he felt almost middle-aged again.
from
Angelica's Grotto |
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"I'm not in love with her,"
Klein whispered into his hand. "That would be too pathetic."
"What are you whispering?"
"I'm not in love with you, Melissa."
"That's perfectly all right, Harold, but if you want to be in love with
me, that's all right too. An experience can be life-enriching even when
it's emotionally frustrating."
She said this tenderly, with her hand on his arm and her blue eyes full on
him. Klein kissed her and she kissed him back.
"This is my life now," he whispered into his hand. "The past doesn't go
away, but the present steps in front of it."
from
Angelica's Grotto |
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Love Lisa
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Lisa's 2006 4qation
My first choice got tucked between the
red velvet cushions at a bar called Joburg, where the barman said he'd run out
of juice but could put together something tall and cool (and he did):
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Whoosh! High in the sky goes Rocket Max.
Showers of stars explode over the Coliseum, it's like a movie. The stick
falls back to earth in St Martin's Lane. "This is it," he says to his
mind. "This is the real thing. This is my destiny woman." All through the
shop heads turn. "Did I say that out loud?" he says.
"Audibly," says Lola. Blushing.
"What do I do now?" says Max. |
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from Her Name was
Lola

I left another copy on the chair of the
next table in a burger bar called Royale Kitchen. The waitress (picture
Amaryllis with an Afro and an apron) found it, and read it as she rolled
cigarettes in the back of the restaurant. 'It's a quotation,' she told me as I
walked past to the toilets.
Where I left the other:
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Darkness roared with the lion, the night
stalked with the silence of him.
The lion was. Ignorant of non-existence he existed. Ignorant of self he
was a sunlit violence with calm joy at the centre of it, he was the
violence of being-as-hunter constantly renewed in the devouring of
non-being. The wheel had been when he ran tawny on the plain, printing his
motion on the grateful air. He had died biting the wheel that went on and
left him dead. The wheel continued, the lion continued. He was intact,
diminished by nothing, increased by nothing, absolute. He ate meat or he
did not eat meat, was seen or unseen, known when there was knowledge of
him, unknown when there was not. But always he was.
For him there were no maps, no places, no time. Beneath his tread the
round earth rolled, the wheel turned, bearing him back to death and life
again.
Through his lion-being drifted stars and blackness, morning sang, night
soothed, dawn burst its daylight from the womb of vital terror. Oceans
heaved, frail bridges spanned the winding track of days, the rising air
sang lion-flight in wings of birds. In clocks ticked lion-time. It pulsed
in heartbeats, footsteps walking all unknowing, souls of guilt and sorrow,
souls of love and pain. He had been called, he had come. He was.
from The
Lion of Boaz-Jachin and Jachin-Boaz |
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Happy birthday Russ!
Love Lisa
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Lisa's 2005 4qation
Hello all!
Well, it seems you can SA4Qate in pairs,
as my friend Lara and I proved this evening. We both had busy weeks, so agreed
to find our quotes of choice then join forces this evening for some yellow
paper.
I decided to use quotations from
Amaryllis Night and Day because it's the first Hoban book I read, and it
was a birthday present, and this is my first SA4QE expedition and a birthday
present too! Also, I have always been a weird and vivid dreamer, and I used to
stand on the waking side of my dreams and peer in, pointing, like I was
looking at animals in a zoo. Amaryllis showed me that the gate between the
animals and me was never really closed, let alone locked, and the distinction
between the animals and me was never fixed either. Suddenly we were all
kicking around wandering into each other's territories with a lot less
growling. The other wondrous thing about this book, for me, was the way that
freedom to dream, freedom to love, and creative freedom all become part of the
same dreamy this-is-it state.
Lara chose two quotes from Pilgermann; we
printed these out (2 copies of each) and together we headed off to the large
mainstream bookseller where we have both been repeatedly underwhelmed by the
large stock of Tami Hoag and Nick Hornby muscling out the Hoban collection. We
slipped our yellow paper into the title pages of appropriate - or suitably
inappropriate - titles, which I've listed under each. Here they are:
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I went to see if she was still asleep. She
wasn't in my bed. She wasn't in the studio or on the balcony. She wasn't
in the bathroom or the kitchen. She was nowhere in the house. The night
was gone, the day was here; the tube trains were running and the trees on
the common were swaying in the cool of a morning that was going to turn
hot very soon. Some birds were twittering in a half-hearted way, as if
they were working to rule. At that time of day I always have the feeling
that if you gave reality a good kick, the scenery would shake.
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from Amaryllis Night and Day
One of these went into a boxed set of
books about Salvador Dali. The other went into a travel guide about London.
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'Names are pretty useless, really. If you
say the name of anything ten or twenty times it scatters and falls away
and the thing that's named stands there all naked and unknowable.
Sometimes it comes back to me that nothing can be known, nothing at all.
Black is the colour, silence is the music, Spanish is the way to walk.'
She liked to be baffling, or at least gnostic, wherever possible. Whether
she actually walked Spanish I couldn't say, but her walk was well worth
seeing from the rear. |
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from Amaryllis Night and Day
We looked long and hard for a book of
baby names but they were out of stock and there was nothing on Tom Waits
either, AND there was no stock of TeachYourself Spanish either. So we settled
on something else, but in my head its in a book about Tom Waits and I can't
move it now.
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'I'll go to my bed now and you lie down
here. Look at the Mobius strip while you go around it with the slider.
You're going to be pulling me into your dream so you should have me in
your mind's eye while you're sliding the Mobius. Easy does it, just float
with it, OK?'
'OK.'
'You're going to do it, I can feel it in
you.' She kissed me with what was unmistakably a destiny kiss. 'See you in
your dream,' she whispered. 'What if one of us is still awake while the
other one's asleep?'
'If we're tuned in right that won't happen.
Trust me, I'm a weirdo.' |
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from Amaryllis Night
and Day
One copy went into a book titled
Snoring - Effective Relief. The other into the sole copy of Her Name
Was Lola (actually there were two when we arrived, but we bought one so
there was only one left after that).
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And yet, so are we made and such is the
action of the everything in this one moment that is every moment, that
another thought flickers over and under my first thought: what style God
has! What a truly godlike extravagance, to burst out all at once with a
universe in which everything is going at once and humankind is let run
with nothing to stop it from doing anything at all. And to make this
running-loose creature with a mind that knows what it is doing and a soul
in which Hell burns always and Heaven is grasped so rarely and so briefly
that it lives in us as a continual yearning for what can never be held
onto, for what must always always be lost: what invention! |
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from Pilgermann
One of these went into a book about god
on the religion shelves; the other into Primo Levi's If this is a man.
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'Forgive me,' he said. 'Please, please
forgive me. I would do it again if I had the chance.' |
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from Pilgermann
One of these went into a book of erotica
whose title I can't remember because there were so many pictures competing for
attention. The other was supposed to go to our waiter, but after three pina
coladas and dinner, I think we were all SA4Q-ated out by then.
happy birthday Russell Hoban!
Love from
Lisa Greenstein & Lara
Hoffenberg

See also
Lara's SA4QE page
and
Lisa's report on the Russell Hoban
Some-Poasyum
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